Worries, Worries

I spent the time from today to my doctor's appointmet being intermittently worried and unaware of the situation. I had one really bad night where I was terrified and had no one to call, which was pretty bad. I just cried and cried for maybe 3 hours until I got too tired and finally fell asleep. It was a strange situation because only my ex-boyfriend and my sister knew what was going on. I didn't tell my parents because they were out of town visiting my brother in NY. I didn't want to spoil their vacation, even though I knew they'd want to know. And I didn't want to scare anybody prematurely; I mean, I'm 25 and these lumps were most likely NOTHING.

Still scary though. And you ladies out there, if you ever find anything like this in your breasts, MAKE AN APPOINTMENT! You will feel so much more relieved, and though it sounds kinda silly coming from me, the lumps are really probably nothing. But it's good to know! And knowing is half the battle, G.I. Janes! (I wish... I pray that this battle will be THE hardest thing in my life, and that I get to get it out of the way early!)

The Lump Becomes "An Issue"

The lump hadn't gone away after my period, as apparently some of these masses do. Since boobs are all squishy at the end of a period (hence this is when you're supposed to do a breast self exam), the lump stood out and couldn't be ignored. It seemed harder and larger. I called to make a doctor's appointment today, although I feared I was just being a hypochondriac. I could have taken an appointment immediately, but that would have meant a 4.5 hour roundtrip drive to Fort Collins for a brief apointment. So I just scheduled an appointment for when I was going to be home for my mom's birthday.

Start at the Beginning... A Lump is Discovered

The dates for the early part of this journey are approximate. I know at some point during this week, the guy I was dating noticed a lump in my right breast. I thought nothing of it, told him not to worry, and subsequently didn't worry myself. I backlogged the whole thing and it remained in the periphery of my mind for about two weeks.